I hope...

I hope that you know that i would sacrifice my happiness for your happiness... i just hope that you havent fallen out of love for me... And that I understand you everytime you are watching whenever we are talking, or reading, or playing, or whatever
I can understand all that. Even though it hurts, im just gonna let you be. Because i know you are happy. I just hope that you know. that im hurting deep down inside. i just dont show it. You know the reason why....

A little hard..

Its really hard just to take it all in... I hate not talking to you. I hate the thought of you going somewhere else without me... I just hate everything that I cant do with you.... It just so hard. I just cant stop thinking about it.

As crazy as it sounds Im madly in love with you. I just dont know how to deal with everything. I know you have things in your life other than me... I get that... I just cant march into every aspect of your life.... What kind of boyfriend would I be? I know I probably already am the worst boyfriend ever. For controlling you and such. But all that was because, like I said, Im afraid to loose you.

I know its not the best decision I probably can ever make.. But its all in the name of love. Im just too damn scared to loose you.. Just know that. And never forget it.

My phobia..

I hope I get to talk to you a lot during this one week vacation of yours..
Becasue i know that your next term would be hard as there would be days that
you would be going home late nights....some even until 9.
Which means that you will reach home by 10...
And whats worse, you'll go to vegan for a whole day or two... maybe even 3....

I just cant take not talking to you for a long time... Or not talking to you in general...
Im scared. Really freaking scared.
Im just too far away from you. We dont have a normal relationship.
I dont want to lose you.. I just really dont...

As much as i want to have you all to myself, i know you have family and school too...
And i have to understand that. As much as it hurts. As much as it kills me...
I'll try my best to understand to the very end.
This would all be easy if I get to see you everyday. I would understand better, and i would be feeling much more secured.

But im not. Its never easy for us. After spending 10 years far from you.. I just csnt spend anymore time away from you...
I miss you so much. More than you'll ever know. Please dont leave me.
Please.... Love me. And only me. Dont love another. Because im afraid to loose you..

I really am afraid to loose you. If i loose you... I'd loose my humanity and my sanity... :(

I LOVE YOU JILLIANNE V. BERTOL. I LOVE YOU TILL THE VERY END OF ME.. ♥

Woh..

Haha. Its been a long time since I've posted something on this blog.

Now in Panama. Going to Orlando, Florida this Sunday! Im gonna go to Universal Orlando(Universal Studios)!!! Haha:D

Well, its a bummer.... The water plant is kinda on repair right now, so the tap water is going on and off and on and off... Its irritating.. Well, at least there is a swimming pool!:D

Lately I cant sleep well. Cuz I every night I think about someone. Well, sorry if you cant sleep at night, too.

Oh well. Guess im gonna change the blogskin. See if there's any new theme..

Adios!

New!

My new laptop! I dont know why but I'm starting to like the colour green.... O.O

Oh well. Its VAIO E Series, btw. Intel Core i5, WITH a 1 GB Graphic Card. $1799.

Good deal, no?

Haix. Today alot of things happened.. Some good, and some bad... Well, mostly bad.

Dont like to talk about it.

OH YA. I had 2 consecutive free periods today!!! Sci(Chemistry) and E Maths.

We were surprised when Mr. Poh, our E Maths teacher, didnt come today...

Because he always comes to school... Ms. Lee too....

Then, after school, went to Tampines Mall. Waited for my mom to come to get this lappy.. Hehe...:) BABOOSH....... :(

Right now, I think I am falling apart...

Cool...

LOL. Look what i found inside my old phone~!

Its a pic from our class chalet last year!

Cool..

OK. Today was fun. English, Chemistry, A Maths and SS was really out of the ordinary...

We were all laughing! Haha... So fun..

Then i went Physics remedial after school. Another fun yet head-killing time:D

After that, saw Ashley, Aloysious, Bryan(Loo and Ong), Brandon, Wei Jie and Kwee Li playing soccer, so i joined in... So tiring. Wanted to play bb after that but decided to go home instead.

OH YAH. And i also went home wif ASHLEY AND BELLARIE,

But we parted ways at Simei MRT..... O.O

HAHA. Sorry Ash and Bell.. Hehe.

Then went home...xD

P.S: Want to have another class chalet??? ^^

Change..

Well, its been a month now since i've posted something on this blog.
School's been packing me up recently, and now the Teacher's Day concert.
For now, i could still cope with the homeworks and the duties i have.
But now that my father's flown off to Panama, I kinda need to adjust.
That means, i cant go to my CCA, and i also have limited time for the Student Council.This sucks.

Speaking of which, the council is in a mess right now. I dont really have much choice but

to help out, especially with the organizing the Teacher's Day Concert.

The council is getting big.. But there are only a few of us...

What to do, what to do...

Oh yah, i changed my blogskin. I know it looks kinda "gayish" but i think its nice.

Hah...

Finally got my costume for NDP 2010. The pants is big. Gotta alter it. Heh..

The trainings and the rehearsals are getting better by the week. Although its kinda tiring.

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Well, i gotta end here now. My body is aching...

Change is needed to cope with the situation